The moment you are told you have cancer it changes your world in ways that you can’t even explain. I had my follow-up full body scan on March 21st to determine if the radioactive iodine pill worked with the same process as before. There is something so lonely while you are being put in the machine for about two hours with nothing but silence. I thought a lot about the people who have gone along with me on this heart breaking journey. Where do I start…..
A Cancer Thank Youfor being my side when all hope seemed lostfor holding my hand when my body couldn’t stop tremblingfor letting me cry on your shoulder when I told you I had cancerfor cherishing every moment we had together during the strugglefor allowing me to have my space to sort out my feelingsfor not expecting much out of me when all I wanted to do was sleepfor trying to make me smile through the painfor the beautiful, kind words of encouragementfor making me try and see the light when I was buriedfor helping me want to keep going…
I received the news via my medical chart with the doctor’s words “I am pleased with the finding” which is still ringing in my ears. Initially I thought how interesting it was that they can call you on the phone to tell you that you have cancer but can’t call you and tell you that your results are good. I even emailed her back to double check what she said was real. Of course, this is what I have wanted the last five months but I felt like I wasn’t able to completely feel relieved. That is maybe just it though as I’m not sure any cancer patient feels like everything is going to be fantastic after their journey, however I take this as a win.
The struggle was awful but it was worth it for my family to still be able to be here with them. The moment I was able to hold my little girl in my arms after five days is still burned in my mind. Nightmares still come at night and my body doesn’t feel normal. I need to get my lifetime medication regulated and I am hoping this will help some of the side effects I’m still feeling. My follow-up appointment is in four months and at this time it will be an ultrasound to see if anything is growing back. This all still seems so surreal but I have a choice to start moving forward with a future I can put my passion towards. There may even be a skydive in that future! I am so thankful and grateful for all of you as you made this journey more bearable. You are all amazing and the support you shared is something I will never forget. One thing I would like you to think about is showing how much you love someone before it is too late as why not give a hug or speak the words? I get to continue on with my journey and I want to thank you one last time from the bottom of my heart.
I turned on the radio in my car after finding out my results and the music that played gave me goosebumps, so I hope you enjoy.
Well life is short
And love is rare
And we all deserve to be happy while we’re here
And love is rare
And we all deserve to be happy while we’re here
I’ve been tryna slow it down
I’ve been tryna take it in
In this here today gone tomorrow world we’re livin’ in
I’ve been tryna take it in
In this here today gone tomorrow world we’re livin’ in
Until Next Time………………..
Traveling With Jo 
Jo, bear with me as I am not a “techy” person & have never posted a response to wordpress. The tears just rolled as I read your message. I visualize you giving your Dr. a call, you giving your daughter a hug…..I am so happy for you. God bless, take care and thanks for including me in the posts. Gloria
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Oh Gloria, I miss your beautiful face!:) I have amazing strong people like you to show me how to keep going! You are such an inspiration to me as you impact everyone around You! Take care!!
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