“Up Above”

Life doesn’t seem to want to slow down and I have been traveling quite a bit but this gives me time to ponder on life. I was recently laying with my little girl in her bed before bed time to have some girl talk and she likes to put her “Stars” on. Jocelyn has a turtle that turns on and projects stars on the ceiling and walls which she has done since she was a toddler. She asked me the question “What do you think really is up above?” I sat there in silence for a minute and said a whole different universe. Of course this didn’t satisfy her curiosity and we talked a lot about stars and heaven.

“Twinkle twinkle little star”

Stars have always been something that have intrigued me even at a young age. I think Jocey thinks like me sometimes which is kind of scary but maybe at the same time a good thing?! I have always loved being outside at night as it is so calm and peaceful whether it was a bonfire, rollerblading down Main Street, or just out for a walk. Nothing is a better sight than seeing the stars above shining so brightly like a light show for all of us to watch for free. What is up there? Of course we know the science behind stars as we see the sun on a daily basis but as a young child imagination takes over. I always thought maybe stars were a part of something bigger maybe because we have always been told to wish on a shooting star. Maybe I always wanted so badly for those wishes to come true when I knew deep down that it would never happen.

“How I wonder what you are…..”

Stars have been a big part of my life not just because growing up my high school team name was “Stars” but have always loved what they represent to me. They are scattered throughout my life which is fitting how they are scattered throughout the sky. If you know me I have two star tattoos and I always get asked “What is the significance of your star tattoos?” my answer is always “I just love stars.” There may be some clothes hanging in my closet that have stars on them and of course anytime I see some type of clothing with stars on it for Jocelyn it will be purchased. Stars are even placed throughout our house almost like a scavenger hunt to keep the reminder of what a star means to me.

“up above the world so high…”

“Mom do you see stars in heaven?” “Yes, Jocelyn the stars shine even brighter in heaven.” What a concept that heaven can be what you want it to be even if we don’t know what comes next. Why not make it in to something that is extraordinary like being in the sky among the brightest stars where maybe we are able to make someone’s wish come true. That doesn’t sound so bad to me………

“like a diamond in the sky.”

I think more than anything I like what stars represent for me. There is so much darkness in the world but there is a bright spot in all of us that we can choose to let shine. If you think about it in order to see the stars there needs to be a certain darkness so maybe there is hope for all of us? I have been thinking about attachment and wondering if there is some inner attachment issue or a deeper underlining situation on to why I’m so interested? I really thinking it just has something to do with the way I grew up and the situations I was in and I’m guessing those moments are where everything in the world seemed okay for just a second.